Here I am, send me!

Sarah's bday song =)

2007-09-28T17:24:00.000+08:00

we write this for you (we thank God for you)
it's no secret what we wish to say
but we hide it from view
among childish strains of laughter

we escape the gravity of age
and circle around for a better view

Chorus:
gather up some stars sprinkled from your eyes
bathrooms and bedrooms; and paper bags over our heads
gather up some stars sprinkled from your eyes
small paus and giggles, rara and details
bathrooms and bedrooms; and paper bags over our heads

we write this for you
it's no secret what we wish to say
now off to your new journeys
don't forget who you are

Written by Stacey and a few random ppl.
Music By Derek
Sung by Chun and Derek

5 Loaves and 2 fishes

2007-09-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

I just heard this song from Corrinne May's latest album, and this song ministered to me. Read the lyrics below!! =) This is my prayer to God, that He will use my 5 loaves and 2 fishes for His glory.

A little boy of 13 was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
There were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out with the trust of a child
he said:
"Take my five loaves and two fishes.
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all."

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All you need is my 'Amen'

"Take my five loaves and two fishes.
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all."

I trust in you I trust in you
You can use it all
No gift is too small

From Max Lucado

2007-08-21T09:55:00.000+08:00

You never know Jesus is All YOU Need until Jesus is All YOU Have!

God challenged me to surrender every area of my life back to Him. I have been more actively finding out about when I can leave for my short-term stint to Thailand.. Perhaps it would be in the year 2010! by then, I would be 26 and when I come back I would be 28 already! Oh man..getting old!

Taking risks for God

2007-08-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

Our security must be in God in order to take risks for God. I want to dare to take risks for God, I want to have godly influence on people, I want to have the passion for the truth and be willing to go beyond my comfort zone!

Qualities required for a missionary:
1. Must be soul winners!
2. Prayerful
3.Accomodate to other workers in the team
4.Willing to submit to authorities
5. Having faith in God alone will give joy and rest.

I am happy!

2007-08-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

Thank God for the friendships restored..Thank God for many many good friends!Sometimes I do not know why things happen, why friendships drift, why there actually has to be something called SEASONS of life,but I guess, I treasure my friendships more now! =)

Waiting on God

2007-08-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him! - Isaiah 30:18
(From TGIF)
Have you ever noticed that God is not in a hurry?
Bliblical Timeline:
It took 40 years for Moses to receive his commission to lead the people out of Egypt.
It took 17 years of preparation before Joseph was delivered from slavery and imprisonment.
Abraham and Sarah were in their old age when they finally received the son of promise, Isaac.

So why isn't God in a hurry?God called each of these servants to accomplish a certain task in His Kingdom, yet He was in no hurry to bring their mission into fulfillment.

We are often more focused on outcome than the process that He is accomplishing in our lives each day. When we experience His presence daily, one day we wake up and realize that God has done something special in and through our lives. However, the accomplishment is no longer what excites us. Instead, what excites us is knowing Him. Through those times, we become more acquainted with His love, grace, and power in our lives. When this happens, we are no longer focused on the outcome because the outcome is a result of our walk with Him. It is not the goal of our walk, but the by-product.

We need to come to a place of complete surrender so that we are not anxious about tomorrow or our circumstances.This is the lesson for us. We must wait for God's timing and embrace wherever we are in the process. When we find contentment in that place, we begin to experience God in ways we never thought possible.

Jesus, I wait patiently on You. Help me to know YOU better in the process!

Hannah's Prayer

2007-08-08T10:12:00.000+08:00

1 Sam 1-2

Everyone has unfulfilled longings. I have too..In the Bible, Hannah felt the pain of postponement as she was not able to have a child for the longest time. Hannah had to let go of what she longed for that had not been fulfilled. What did she do? She took her feelings to God and surrendered.

LET GO..LET GO AGAIN AND LET GOD!

We have to adopt a posture of prayer, of humbleness to TRUST GOD TO BE GOD and Trust HIM to take control. Isa 30:15 'In quietness and trust is your strength'

On Sunday, after this sermon by Pastor Shern, I decided. I decided to surrender my unfulfilled longings to the Lord and submit to His will. Now I know that God shifts our motives till it is God and no one else. If I have not grown my knowledge of God in the process of surrendering to God, I have not surrendered at all.

Buddy and I

2007-08-04T11:08:00.000+08:00

Full Surrender

2007-08-04T10:39:00.000+08:00

From the TGIF article

"What if there were two doors to choose from; behind one door was the complete will of God for your life and behind the other door was how life could be according to your own preference. Which door would you choose?"

The struggle for most lies in the desire to follow God completely and the fear of what might be behind the door of full surrender. Most of us desire to follow God, but few of us will do it at any cost. We do not really believe that God loves us to the degree that we are willing to give Him complete permission to do as He wills in us.

If God has plans to greatly use you in the lives of others, you can expect your trials to be even greater than those of others. Why? Because, like Joseph who went through greater trials than most patriarchs, your calling may have such responsibility that God cannot afford to entrust it to you without ensuring your complete faithfulness to the call. He has much invested in you on behalf of others. He may want to speak through your life to a greater degree than through another. The events of your life would become the frame for the message He wants to speak through you.Do not fear the path that God may lead you on. Embrace it. For God may bring you down a path in your life to ensure the reward of your inheritance.

God, what is your will in my life?I fear because I don't see, because it's uncertain.I know my life will be different, that You have called me for a high calling. Help me to trust Your Heart when I don't understand Your plans.

Waiting for the Lord

2007-07-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

A devotional from TGIF article =)

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. - Psalm 27:14

Hearing and doing God's will are two important steps that often get confused as one step. However, these are two distinct processes. When we hear God's voice, this is only 50 percent of the process. The next important step is to know when to move. It is one thing to hear; it is another to know when to act.

God wants us to act on it too, not just wait for something to happen. We need to move and continue to place our hope and trust in the Lord.

God is always on time. He is never late, and He is seldom early. Ask God for the wisdom to discern His will and His timing for the events in your life.

*my prayer:God, help me to put my hope in You. To trust that You are always on time. =)

Forgiveness

2007-07-26T10:43:00.000+08:00

I read the online news about the S.Koreans.Emotions overwhelm me.I remember Daddy asking me to intercede for them that they will forgive the ones who capture them. Today, I find it so difficult. For the sake of the call they have gone. And now,one of them have been shot dead with 10 bullet holes. Strong is their faith in Daddy. Will they really find peace and love from Daddy in these times of adversity? Daddy, I do not know them, yet my heart aches for them. You know all things and hold the world in Your hands. Nothing is too difficult for you. Work a miracle through this situation, Daddy. And strengthen and grant them ur peace that transends all understanding.

"Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."

Be still

2007-07-26T10:39:00.000+08:00

Psalms 46:10 'Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
We sang the worship song 'Still' yesterday during LCM. The verse that ministered to me goes like this :
'Find rest my Soul
In Christ Alone,
Know His power,
In quietness and trust'

In quietness and trust, I will find His power. In quietness and trust, I will find His strength. Help me to claim that O God!

These are my colleagues!

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Trust His Heart

2007-07-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

This song touches my heart.Ask me for the song if you want to listen to it!

Trust His Heart
All things work for our good, though sometimes we can't see how they could. Struggles that break our hearts in two, sometimes blinds us to the truth. Our Father knows what's best for us His ways are not our own. So when your pathway grows dim and you just can't see Him. Remember you're never alone.

Chorus:God is too wise to be mistaken, God is too good to be unkind. So when you don't understand, when you don't see his plan, when you can't trace his hand, trust His heart.

He sees the master plan. He holds our future in His hand.So don't live as those who have no hope. All our hope is found in Him. We see the present clearly. But He sees the first and the last. And like a tapestry, He is weaving you and me to someday be just like Him.

Bridge:He alone is faithful and true. He alone knows what is best for you.

Jesus, help me to trust Your heart when things seem so uncertain..You are too good to be unkind to me.

Expectations

2007-07-22T12:29:00.000+08:00

I think that recently, I have unmet expectations. Perhaps it is of people or of situations. Here is what an article from TGIF says about expectations. May your heart be blessed as you read it.

Perhaps you were trusting God for something in your life that never materialized. Perhaps you became devastated by an unmet expectation that you felt you were entitled to. Expectations can be a difficult trap for each of us if we are not fully committed to God's purposes in our lives.

When we react to circumstances with bitterness and resentment as a result of unmet expectations, we are saying that we know better than God, and that God has made a mistake in not meeting our expectations.T

Action plan:Tell the person, who is the source of the unmet expectation, and of how the unmet expectation made you feel. This is not to make the person feel obligated to meet the expectation, but simply to share your feelings about it. If God was the source, then it is important to share this with the Lord.

Looking forward:However, once we have done this we must let go of the situation and allow God to work in our hearts the grace that is needed to walk in freedom from the pain of the unmet expectation. If we do not do this, we will allow the seed of bitterness and resentment to enter in. This seed of bitterness will create leanness in our soul and eventually will spread to others.

Facing the Giants

2007-07-19T14:09:00.001+08:00

I just watched the movie, Facing the Giants. It's really great and I will show it to my CG this sat!If you haven't watch, pls go watch it too! It will encourage your faith and inspire your heart to give your best in all that you do!

What is your giant of Fear today?Do you believe that our God is bigger than that?If you accept defeat now,that's what you are going to get! We need to trust God for the rain and in order to claim that promise, we need to prepare the field to receive it! Are you doing your best to welcome the Lord's favor?

God's Motive..

2007-07-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I was reminded to always look at the BIG picture and not the small picture. Fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith. When Jesus died on the cross, it was for the victory that He was gg to achieve, though he suffered in our place.

Just another chapter of my life ended.It's hard to face it and I went home crying.I pray that the friendships that we shared are not seasonal but lasting bonds!

Lesson from the Lord:
TGIF-Today God Is First

God has a motive for every one of His children. His desire is to bring us into a spacious place. He wants us to go beyond our borders of safety and security so that we might experience life at a level that goes beyond ourselves.Sometimes failure is what is needed in order to move us to the next level of faith with God. However, we must be willing to fail and let God rescue us.The Lord delights in this process. His motive for His children is always love. It is always to bring us to a new level of trust and dependence on Him.Amen.

2007-07-10T11:05:00.000+08:00

New seasons in friendship

I learnt to move on to accept that friendships change but God's love never changes. The song 'What a friend we have in Jesus' really ministered to me. He is the same yesterday today and forever. Claim that!

Commitment of a Lifetime

An author says that receiving Jesus into your life is like receiving a million dollars. Except that this million dollars is not a single piece but many small pieces of a dollar each. What it means is that our commitment to God is a daily event, a daily surrender, step by step each day, not a one-way ticket to heaven.

Paolo and erm...burried man.haha

2007-07-08T11:29:00.001+08:00

Jedidiah CG

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A LOVELY hymn that ministered to me yesterday
I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord
No tender voice like Thine can peace afford
I need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby
Temptations lose their power
When Thou art nigh
I need thee, oh, I need thee, every hour I need Thee
Oh, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee

I need Thee every hour in joy or pain
Come quickly and abide or life is in vain
I need Thee, oh, I need Thee, every hour I need Thee
Oh, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee

I need Thee every hour, teach me Thy will
And Thy rich promises in me fulfill
I need Thee, oh, I need Thee
Every hour I need Thee
Oh, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee

Are you paying attention?

2007-07-06T11:26:00.000+08:00

Adapted from the Discipleship Journal.
Sometimes we anticipate to have a good quality time with our friend,rich and inspiring like always,but after meeting the friend, we realise that it was far from what we expected. Did our friendship change?I wonder about that too sometimes.

Here is what I learnt.Paying attention is the key to building life-giving relationships.Do we give enough attention to the people who are talking to us or do we get distracted by other things and wonder what we want to say next after our friend completed their sentence?

We all want to be noticed, to have our feelings, our longlings and our hearts acknowledged. Notice that Jesus always paid attention. When Jesus spoke to people individually, I believe that each of them felt like they were the only person in the world. Jesus noticed what others missed. Jesus saw the value of the person, so much so that He gave His complete attention to him.Our inattentiveness can imply that we see little worth in a person.

2 questions to think about: Are we paying enough attention to our close friends? It is easy to neglect the people who matter most to us. Second, are we paying enough attention to the One who given His All to us?

Kairos Bowling

2007-07-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

I want to be rich towards God!

2007-07-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the newly revamped blog!
Here are a few things I want to commit myself to doing:
1. This blog will serve to help you (the reader) get to know the God I Love.
2. If you already know God, I pray that this blog will manifest the goodness and faithfulness of God that would encourage you in your faith.
3.I will use this blog as a discipline for myself to draw closer to God and to desire His presence in my every-day life.

If you have been encouraged, please let me know!

Running the race for an audience of One!

2006-12-16T11:06:00.000+08:00

Running the race for an audience of One!

This Thailand trip was really good. The shopping was good, the retreat away from Singapore was good, the fellowship w family was good, the meeting up w relatives was good and most memorably, the catching up w Yokie, Aoh, Pum and Jo was great! =)

I was recharged, learnt many lessons and even joined my fren's crusade cellgroup for one of the nights!

Something I learnt from cellgroup -Thailand CCC
2 Tim 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

It was Paul's last letter to timothy and Paul was able to say this verse, are we able to say the same? What have we fought for Jesus? Have we even be fighting for Him?

Impt lesson - Running the Race for an Audience of One
Ministry is filled with all kinds of crowds. Some crowds cheer us on for all of the right reasons. Others cheer us on as a power play. And of cos, jeering crowds always stand ready to criticize and discourage. Trouble comes when we cater to any one of these crowds.
To experience the power of God in ministry, we cannot rely upon support of man in any decision to obey God. If we don't understand who our audience really is, and who we really are in the eyes of man and in the eyes of God, we WILL CRUMBLE AND FALL.

The ONLY ONE you can always depend on to be your cheerleader is God. He is your audience. Be willing to run the race for Him alone!

The Call of God

2006-11-02T17:24:00.000+08:00

The Call of God

There is no call to svc for God. He does not have to come and tell me what I must do for Him. He brings me into a relationship with himself where I hear his call and understand what He wants me to do and do it out of sheer love to Him. It's my relationship to God that will enable me to realise what I can do for God!

My friend's blog has a very interesting video which I wanna recommend to you!!
Check this out --> www.interviewwithgod.com

My New phone!!

2006-11-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!i have a new NOKIA phone!Thank you daddy, mummy and little jo for chipping in!

God draws straight lines with crooked sticks

2006-11-01T06:33:00.000+08:00

God draws straight lines with crooked sticks

Adapted frm heartlight.org =)

Have you noticed how candid the Bible is about its heroes? It doesn paint a pretty and flawless pic of the characters. Abraham is not only the Father of All Who Believe but the scared rabbit who puts his wife in jeopardy to save his neck. King David is not only the Man After God's Heart but the adulterer who lies and kills a man to try to keep the affair from being exposed. Peter is not only First Among Equals in the band of apostles but the frightened fisherman who denies knowing Jesus of Nazareth in his hour of need – not once, but three times.

Why do you think God did that?Those stories in the Bible are about real people. And real people have weaknesses as well as strengths, bad days as well as good ones. For another, God knows everything and lies about nothing. So the Bible doesn't tell half-truths or gloss over human frailty. Finally, the full story gets told so you and I will understand that God is willing and eager to accept and include us too.

Joseph had a prison record. Sarah laughed at God's promises. Jacob hurt his family by playing favorites with his kids. Naomi and Ruth were widows. Job lost everything he had ever worked for. Jeremiah was depressed and suicidal. Rahab had been a prostitute. Noah got drunk. Moses stuttered.

Are you getting the picture now? Is it dawning on you that God doesn't have to recruit perfect people (there aren't any!) and will use just about anybody who is willing to trust him? That means he can use you. You. And you. Even me.

God does some of his best work through the most unlikely people. He draws some beautifully straight lines with some of the most crooked of sticks.

'All of these people we have mentioned received God's approval because of their faith, yet none of them received all that God had promised. For God had far better things in mind for us that would also benefit them, for they can't receive the prize at the end of the race until we finish the race' (Hebrews 11:39-40 NLT). (My buddy's fav verse!=P)

sch frens!

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Sch frens!

yummy food!

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Yummy food!

bish bish bish

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Kidnapped!

God's beloved children.

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God's beloved children!

Pizza Treat!

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Pizza Treat!!

Sul Sul and Me!

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Sul Sul and Me!

DG sisters

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DG sisters! 'Best people in the universe!'-Stacey

Spirit of Indifference and spiritual dryness

2006-10-27T12:19:00.000+08:00

Spirit of Indifference and Spiritual dryness

Enlighten me. Why do christians in Singapore get spiritually dry easily, to the point of being bo-chap about things upon God's heart? (not nurturing their own spiritual garden thru neglect of prayer and spending time with Him)

This week, I read an article on North Korea's matyrs which really really inspired me. The 4 young guys (below 20 yrs) knew what they were in for when they chose to follow Christ but they passionately followed. To the extend of standing up for their own faith in the midst of the communist government's questioning & torture. They are so young in their faith and yet, their hunger for God is evident in their lives. Are we hungering enough for Him?

Another video that i watched in LTP course caused a burning passion in my heart to see lost souls saved for Christ.Unsaved people = Those who have been given a chance to respond to the gospel and rejected it. Unreached people= Those who will die without even hearing about who Jesus is. There are many people out there who needs to hear the gospel but in Singapore, many of us are caught up in our own world, on how Jesus can fix our problems that we miss out the whole big picture of our purpose on this earth!

Where is the hunger? The thirst for God's truth? I can feel God's heart, he is hurting because of our response to Him.

How can a shepherd then lead his flock in such a situation? Here's what Pastor Shern says: It is sad but true. I think it is not just Singaporeans but all Christians who get dry easily when we don't stay connected to the Lord by abiding in His Word and enjoying His presence thru worship, prayer and fellowship. We probably help best by being ourselves well-fed and watered in the fullness of the Spirit. Then we are led of God to bring His perspective to others in His way with grace and truth. Also, we can't lead others to places we have not been ourselves.

Yup, my dad also shared the same thing. As a leader, our walk with God must be strong, know where to get your strength from so that you don't burn out as a leader.

What are your thoughts? Why do christians in Singapore get dry easily and how can a leader help?

peaceful pic

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A peaceful picture reminds me of God's wonderful creation!

Finding God in the midst of busy-ness

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Finding God in the midst of busy-ness

I am thankful for God's faithfulness in times when QT is shortened but quality time is still spent.
I am thankful to God for provision for next week's Concert venue after going thru so much hassle!
I am thankful for ample time from now (12.30pm) to tml to complete a counseling report.
I am thankful for friends who has given me ideas on how to start the report.
I am thankful for evan,andrew,xiangjun, that we are supporting one another in Mass E com.
I am thankful for peggy,des, deborah and all crusaders who are helping out in one way or another. (I am reminded again that this is not my project or xj's but God's project)
I am thankful for my buddy and chanmin who are helping me organize a funfilled friday night.
I am thankful for how God is working in Jedidiah though I cannot fanthom his ways.
I am thankful for a good night's rest.....

Yup, do u get my point? In the midst of busy-ness, just stop and think about how he has blessed you and I'm sure you will be encouraged! =) God works miraculously and each of us have our own unique thanksgiving list!

For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. Phil4:13

Thank you, God!

Cheers!!

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Ending the grand finale with a toast!Don't worry, i din drink that champagne.. =D

my fav pic...

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Yes!! we are 22! =) my fav picture with super big balloons that are half our size!

Jeff wang!! drools

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Jeff wang!! *drools* Yup! A* Planner, rmb to tune in to 8 Nov, 8pm, Channel 8!

don't worry,i'm straight.

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don't worry,i'm straight! Cheeky pose..

can u see us in btw balloons?

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can u see us in btw the balloons?

people before programs

2006-10-16T11:02:00.000+08:00

People before Programs

Sometimes we get so task oriented that in ministry we place programs before people. We get caught up with numbers, statistics, programs that the needs of God's people can be forgotten.

A bible teacher once said, don't build little empire of you church but build into the lives of people and leave the results to God. Even i get caught up at times of seeing numbers and results of events that I miss out the whole point of PEOPLE before PROGRAMS!

Even Jesus never forgot the importance of individuals. He invested His time in 12 men. Paul discipled Timothy who in turn discipled others. God's kingdom grow when we invest in people.

Have i put people's needs before programs today? *poor is the church that values programs above people*

David and the Goliath

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David and the Goliath

1Samuel 17
So many times we read the story of David and the Goliath but we miss out on what God is actually trying to reveal to us from the passage. Yes, we know that God chose a young and militarily inexperienced boy like David to show His power through his weakness. And we also know that God chooses the ordinary people to do extraordinary things.

But the point IS, God is NOT looking for someone with the most ability, but the one WITH the most AVAILABILITY!! Have you been daunted by the fact that you are not smart enough, not pretty enough, not talented enough, not adequate, not charismatic or eloquent enough for God's use? hey hey, you are getting it all wrong then! If you are willing to raise your hand and say 'God, use me. Here I am.' HE WILL!

So the question really, is are you AVAILABLE for God to use you today?

The pilot's routine check

2006-10-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

The pilot's routine check

In our society today, many christian leaders today burn out, get discouraged and just quit. What motivates you in your ministry? Ministry failure is results from a neglect of the basics of faith. Lifestyle is so much impt than leadership techniques? Are you walking right with God?

In the cockpit of the aeroplane, before take off, the pilot does routine checks on a list of checklist he done for tons of times to make sure everything is in order and he would be ready for take-off after that. Its the same in our spiritual life. We must beware not to neglect our basics of Christianity in order to be ready for the journey we have in this life!

Keep Running on Jesus' passion for ministry..

My Thai JukeBox

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My Thai JukeBox

If you are interested in listening to Thai Christian songs, do tune in to this Juke Box! http://www.mychristiansong.com/mychristiansong/myjukebox.php?sort=artists&artists=38#

Though I do not understand fully what they are singing, but the spirit behind it is alive. God's presence in that live worship band cannot be denied! My passion for Thailand is renewed and re-affirmed once again.

khop khun pra jaao hay chii wit khoong rao.

Psalms 1

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Psalms 1
Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree planted by streams of water,which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.

Not so the wicked! They are like chaff that the wind blows away.
Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.
For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.

I want to be a flourishing, shady angsana tree which leaves are always green and always bears fruits. This is my sincere prayer.

Stir

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STIR Music Concert Poster

Angels Rejoice!

2006-10-05T13:17:00.000+08:00

Angels Rejoice!

Praise God! The whole choir of angels rejoices when one soul on earth is saved. My dear sec sch pal received Christ and not only that, she's gonna be baptised on my birthday! This is the best birthday present ever! =) Ping, praise God for what He is doing in your life! God is just so amazing! As for me, I stand in awe.

Psalm 95:1-3
Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD;let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.
Let us come before him with thanksgiving and extol him with music and song.
For the LORD is the great God, the great King above all gods.

I Love surprises!

2006-10-04T07:41:00.000+08:00

I Love surprises!

Esp, God-surprises! Yday I was surprised by God..I was quite anxious about the venue for Mass E and my dear faith-full Stacey dear prayed and entrusted the whole event into God's hands.

Immediately when she said amen, Mala from OSA called! wow.. amazed by God's immediate answered prayer!

I'm reminded again that it's the Lord's project and He WILL provide.

2006-10-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

Sarah, Me, Jean & Diana @ Gelare Cafe

Revamped, refreshed, refocused!

2006-10-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

Revamped, refreshed, refocused!
YESSSS!!*screams!* Im finally back blogging. Decided to start this so I can keep myself refreshed and refocused on God as I get busier and busier.

This newly revamped bloggie will act as a journal of how God has been working in my life. I will try to add links that are encouraging so that all who visit will be uplifted if you are feeling down. =)

I have been blessed to be a blessing! So I will seek to bless and nothing else.

Has been a long time!

2006-07-13T10:15:00.000+08:00

haha, has been a long time since a posted an update about myself, and esp abt my recent mission trip to thailand! I'll try to update by next week yah? Its very hard to start typing cos I dunno where to start and so many things have happened ever since!

But here's something I've learnt while preparing for this week's BS. Grace(God's part) + Faith (Our part) = Salvation + Good Works. It's not enough to acknowledge God's part of saving grace, we need to place our faith in Him for things to work out!

silly poses..haha

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suki sushi gang..

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finally a gd laugh frm caleb!

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pretty girls..=)

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the sianz look!

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am i ok?

2006-05-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

i seriously don't know. After getting my results, im really disappointed. i really did my best and i have nv studied so hard, y din i improve but onli to find that i have de-proved? Don't worry, i acknowledge God's sovereignty in all these. Perhaps i haven let reality sink in yet. Y is life so unfair at times?When you try so hard to make the mark, you jus don get what you intended to get. So sian about how things work out sometimes..

Anyways, I'll be leaving for NE Thailand this thurs! Praying for God's will to be done and to be excited about His work in Thailand! Going there also to seek God in certain issues of my life. God, have your way in me Lord. Know my anxious thoughts and lead me to a way everylasting.

'Can I trust you?'

Busy busy!!

2006-05-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Thank God that exams are finally over! I tot i could catch my breath and take a break, do what i like to do best, eg. slack at home, watch vcds and nap the whole day! Haiz...but it has been meetings and events after events...

My this whole week is Crusade's! I had to cancel my tuition too! I miss spending time with Jedidiah though..hope they understand!

Monday was fun, went karaoke with diana,william and sarah (yes, i see that shocked face on u!haha), then went to amy's place to celebrate her bday. William can sing!! and so do diana and sarah. I think i was the worst cos its my 1st time, but there is always a next time to improve!haha..Amy's place was cool, we played swap and laughed most of the time! Time really flies! I known them for 10 years already!

There wil be GEn12 training camp frm tml til sat, really excited abt it! I know God's gonna speak to me somehow (just like how He spoke to me so aptly abt staying on in Crusade). For more details, pls ask me,yah? =)

Sth specially for you: If you are feeling down, start naming 101 ways He's been good to you and start living a life of gratitude from this day onwards!

doing things a fresh way..

2006-04-05T16:10:00.000+08:00

yup. im gonna do things in a fresh way. juggling w commitments is not easy. but i noe God will raise me up so that i can stand on mountains and when im weak, He wil carry me on His shoulders and I'll soar! (song lyrics frm John Groman&secret garden's "You Raise Me Up") I wont be updating my blog for awhile til after exams so stay tuned!haha

Interesting Article!

2006-03-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

Take time to read it! Its really interesting..and very timely indeed..

Why Not Me?

Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?"Then I said, "Here am I. Send me!"- Isaiah 6:8 -

The reason why we do not do greater things for Christ is not because we cannot do them, but because we do not want to. There is always that struggle, because the devil would prefer we stay put in our areas of comfort than have us fight against him. He would have us content, if he could, and so cause us to limit God and his ministry and limit ourselves.

Our voices ring loud:"Lord, I don't feel like sharing Christ with a stranger." But Christ said, "Go (Matt 28:19)."

"Lord, I am so afraid. I just can't do it." But God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline (2 Tim 1:7).

"Lord, I want to serve you but I can't find the time." But He says, "Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, so that there may be food in My house, and test Me now in this, if I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you a blessing until it overflows (Mal 3:10)."

"But Lord, I am but a sinner and a weakling. How can I be of use to you?" Ah, you cry like Isaiah! And the Lord replies, "Your iniquity is taken away and your sin is forgiven (Is 6:7)." And his Word has equipped us for every good work (2 Tim 3:17).

Indeed, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me (Phil 4:13)."Why me, Lord?" we often cry. But really, why not me? God can take our filthy, empty vessel and cleanse it with the blood of Jesus and fill it with the Holy Spirit. Will we let him, and will we open our lids to be filled with living water till it overflows from us?

Pass me not, O gentle Savior, Hear my humble cry;While on others Thou art calling, Do not pass me by.

Fruit of The Spirit

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Retreat to msia..

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Praise God for yday's DVC talk! It was full house and i really enjoyed the whole speech by Dr Lockhart and Mrs Thomas. So engaging.. =)

Looking forward to the retreat later to msia..counting down now. 6 more hours..hahaz.. =) *waits excitedly* shopping w limited budget, suntanning?,waterfall!!, and most importantly fellowship..

Psa37:5
Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:

wait for the Lord..=)

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My heart beats very fast..

2006-03-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

heh..don't guess wrongly. Its not because I got a crush or sth, I seriously don't know why. But since last night, i woke up at 5am to study for my SW2104 test. (400pg to study over 3days ,is just crazy!) Somehow I just couldn concentrate, could feel my heart beating very fast, which i nv felt this way b4. (could it be becos I'm anxious?) Anyways, i jus went back to sleep so that i could relax.

The test was bad. most of my lecture mates say the same too, cos watever we studied and the test qns 3/4 were answered based on 'tikum'! 30% for 30 qns...which means one qn one mark! And my heart is still beating very fast up til now (am i sick?).

I had a bad dream last nite. I dreamt that Jedidiah CG met at someone's house, other cg ppl joined us too, including Joshua and Jiaqi(young adult). There were too many ppl and we just couldn fit into the room, and so, caleb they all were outside the room. I was supposed to lead cg but i din prepare! Joshua looked at me and asked me to share Isaiah41:4 and allow everyone to hear from God what He wants to tell them with regards to the verse.

Ok, end of dream. William told me that I should check the verse b4 leaving house and gg for test. yup, i agree! Let me share with you the assurance that the Lord gave me thru my dream!

4 Who has done this and carried it through, calling forth the generations from the beginning? I, the LORD -with the first of them and with the last-I am he."

and here are some other verses in the same chapter that spoke to me as I read thru.
9 I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
13 For I am the LORD, your God,who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Praise God for His living word that never fails to encourage me!

sianz day..

2006-02-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

Firstly, wanna thank God cos i was able to get an exchange for my mp3 player.. =) *whew*haiya..im in sch now. Had project meetup in e am, then researched on what was assigned to me..now typing it out in microsoft word..Its the first time i dozed off in library while reading a book! *u can imagine how quiet NUS library is!*

Im REALLY looking forward to later's raan ?aahaan thii yipuun (thai for japanese restaurant)meal! Hope that it would be super ?lroy (delicious) and cheap..hahaz..

Lo and Behold

2006-02-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

My Mp3 is SPOILT....really sad...haiz. Pray that I wil get it exchange soon!i realli dunno wat i did wrong, but 2 days ago i was still listening happily to it and on sat, it jus cant on! =(

Anyways, praise God for e 3souls saved yday at the Vday event!! And amazingly, (cos i noe that im still not fluent in ee), God used me to share christ w kunquan & bethia's fren, sidney! Praise God for his salvation! I believe the angels rejoices tog w us as well...Heaven is indeed a free gift for all who chooses to place their faith in the trustworthy object,Jesus.

Here's wat i shared w CG today: Success in witnessing is simply taking the initiative to share Christ in the power of the Holy Spirit and leaving the results to God! yeah...

Oh ya, one last thing b4 i start mugging...Floorball is fun!i played 2 matches today...violent game but very fun..haha...

my new mp3..

2006-02-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

yippee....jus got my very first mp3 player!haha...i guess im kinda slow cos almost 90% of my frens got one already!yup..Im happie w my purchase though.. =) its red in coloR!! he he..

well this week has been really busy for me. Got lots of sch work to catch up with..I got that 'little time yet so much to do' feeling again! I read from a book sth that really encourages me to not be defeated in my mind. It says that, when God calls you to do something, and you feel inadequate, you are most likely on the right track! Cos God wants you to depend on Him for His guidance!

yupz..I went to NUH-kids ward jus now. My very first volunteer work at NUH/NVAC club. It was really good! I befriended a sec2 girl who is also in concert band! And played w 2 pri sch boys..yeah! Cant wait til the next week to befriend somemore kids. God, pls help me make a difference in their lives even with the little time that I spend w them, maximise it to the fullest Lord, for ur glory!

Ps: 18Feb-Vday special in my church organized for all my frens who are interestd!Concert and dinner provided!FREE!! ,19Feb- Lunch,Games, Floorball activities in my church organized by the young adults for all my frens too! yeah..Jus let me know if u are interested..can bring ur frens along too! Oh ya, and this sat, captains ball ..come and exercise and have fun!! =)

Happy Chinese New Year!!

2006-01-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

Wow...2 days of CNY has jus flown by...It has been a gd time of reflection. You noe, its like seldom the opportunity that everyone is jus busy w visitation n whatnots that it also seems like i lost touch w all my frens, and on my own w my own 'relatives' as my circle of influence. And becos im not visiting 24/7, i have time on my own! (get wat i mean?)hee..

Sunday's msg on Ezekiel was GREAT. I decided to deepen my walk w the Lord, and allow the Holy Spirit to work in and thru me..Trying to get beyond the shallow or even waist level of the water! Well, my family came to WEFC too! *clap clap* and i can see that they were ministered by the msg too...God is awesome.. =)

Im excited for tml's visitation w my dear Jedidiah CG!!We will have a FANTABULOUS time!!

PS:btw, my niece (my cousin's daughter) is rreeaallyy cute!! I managed to see her big wide eyes!cos most of the time that i carried her, she jus sleeps peacefully in my arms..heh heh..maybe my hands are too comfy?Better lose some weight soon!!wahaha..

Jedidiah Girls!

2006-01-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

West Coast Park Outing

2006-01-23T09:34:00.000+08:00

I believe that when God shows u a similar lesson twice in the span on 3 days, He is speaking to you! yupz..Daddy spoke to me thru mark12:30..It was preached during last week's sermon! I tot that mayb Pastor Kenny would touch on different areas of the greatest command 'Love the Lord with all your heart and with all your mind and with all your soul and with all your strength.'But noooo!! He preached on the 4 elements, as mentioned in my previous entry. WOW! God is amazing..i muz imprint that verse in my heart now. hee~

Yday was a fun time of bonding with Jedidiah CG! My first time to west coast park! Its soo diff frm what i expected! The turnup wasnt gd cos many couldn make it, but i enjoyed my time w Kunquan, CY, Pris, Raymund, John, Caleb and my fren Willy! It was great chilling out with you guys, climbing the spiderweb, swinging across the sand and frisbee!yeah! Im looking fwd to Chinese New Yr's outing!! =P

I wil upload the pretty pics another time,yah? Its really nice shots w beautiful ppl in it..hahaz..God's creation.

Here's my heart's cry this week: Lord, make me an instrument of your peace!

How am I feeling now?

2006-01-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

God, pls help me to be courageous..I need to not just hear ur voice but to respond boldly to it!

Spiritual Gift Test

2006-01-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

*PS: Happie Birthday Stephen!! Cant believe im 5 yrs older than you!hahaz *

I jus did the 125 questions Spiritual Gift test! And here's the result! (those stated are those that i have higher number of points as compared to the rest. 25 in total)
I've got the gift of:
-Prophecy (its not what u might think it is! its knowing what God wants you to say to particular people at specific points in time..hee)
-Pastor (i don noe y too!)
-Teaching
-Helps
-Missionary
-Evangelist
-Service
Dear God, pls use these gifts u have given to me for the extension of ur Kingdom! Show me how and what to do! =) Into ur hands, I commit this..

Oh ya! I'm gonna start work tml...part time surveyor! Hope it will be an interesting job and sth i can depend on for extra income for the family!Guess what?? I think i got sudden craze for NIKE bags!! SOooooo pretty!! but then the price is very nice too...sigh..

Love the Lord w all ur Heart, Soul, Strength and Mind!

2006-01-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

yup...familiar passage that my DGL, Liting shared w us jus now. Im really really happie that Liting is my new DGL! i served tog w her in our ngee ann days and have learnt alot of leadership skills and precious lessons of God from her! She is a very influential leader, i muz say! Anyways, getting back at the passage, I am motivated to start 2006 having the right focus, to Love God first above all else..Whats interesting is how the heart, soul, strength and mind can represent the different areas of our life.

Heart : Represents my emotions and feelings. I muz think about God and talk about God! And not let distractions or unhealthy things in life block my 'heart' from God!

Soul: Represents my invisible belief system that ppl don see but which guides the choices i make in life. I want God to transform a make right every lie that i might have so that I can walk in His ways!

Mind:I want to experience God and let the knowledge of Him become a powerful testimony to ALL!

Strength: Means willing to take the risk and make an extra effort. I wanna be bold to share Christ this year!

=) Im sooo excited at what God is gonna do in both my life, and my CG's this year! 2006 just gonna be different... Are you ready??

Youthful Servants of the ChiangRai Trip!

2006-01-06T10:49:00.000+08:00

A New Skin for a new Year 2006

2006-01-05T12:57:00.000+08:00

Is the orange skin nice? =) I decided to change it cos its a BRAND new yr! Well, I haven been updating my blog for quite awhile, so now, I don even know where to begin with! So many things has happened..

I really enjoyed myself in the ChiangRai Akha (AOF) trip that I went on 19Dec-28Dec. I went w my ex-church frens, and the young people bonded really well together. We came up with dances (One Way, Every move I make), games, songs, english classes etc etc. But most importantly, God showed us how much He could do thru us, as we allow Him to work in us. There was this special bond between us and the orphans, even though we don't understand each other very well due to the language barrier. But we just enjoyed playing together, and just showering our love to the kids. 2 very important lessons I learnt:

1.God's protection and undertaking is forever with us as we trust in Him. We heard of possible earthquake 6.1 during our first day of arrival @ supper time. God comforted me with this verse Psa56:3 "When I am afraid, I will trust in you.'
Thank God, no earthquake. BBC news reported earthquake in south asia 2 days after our arrival. So, mayb God shifted the earthquake there??

2.The orphans have so little yet they are so happy. They just love us to care for them and just hug them. All the christian songs that they sing are action songs, and they sing it so loudly! enjoying every word and action that they make, singing to God wholeheartedly! It made me treasure what I have, and to love God even more and not be ashamed to praise the Lord and spread His word!

Here's a cool action song I learnt:
Jesus love is sweet and wonderful (x3)
OH OH, wonderful love!
Too high cant get over it,
Too low cant get under it,
Too wide cant get over it,
OH OH, wonderful love!

Yday me and my Chiangrai frens, went to watch Narnia.. =) Fantastic show, powerful too, when its spiritual meaning is interpreted!

Tim Toh, Anna, Samuel, Esther, Debbie, David, Tim Chia, Steven, Clara, Guoyi, Guoyong, thank God for our new found friendship! (or should i say, my new 'old' frens?hehe) Can't wait for our next outing!

In Christ Alone

2005-11-08T08:52:00.000+08:00

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of stength, my source of hope
Is Christ Alone!

Everything i need, is You! My beginning my forever..
Everything I need, is You, is you Jesus!

*That's what i'm gg thru now..cant wait til exams are over!*

YA Retreat~

2005-11-02T08:30:00.000+08:00

YA Retreat~

This weekend got sudden craze for Rummy-O!hahaz...sat a few of us stayed behind in church to play til abt 9pm! I can say that i don regret gg for YA retreat, even though i din stay over!

On sunday, the talk on Dating & relationships was being shared again..i think i gotta start saving money soon even though no partner!haha...the amount spend is crazy! We had Ultimate Frisbee challenge at the beach in the evening! First time playing that on sand...*muscle ache after that* Though my team 'Awesome' had more ladies but i think we did well! Yeah!! *clap clap* Nite time, we had a romantic dinner at River boat..buffet..it was delicious!!We could even feel the boat moving and tot that we had fainting spells!haha..we played the blanket game after dinner. 2 teams on both side, and when the blanket is pulled down, we have to call the person's team name plus his/her name. Bonus was that we had watergun in our hand! so we could immediately shoot the other person! =) Weiseng was sooo funny!! He completely changed my team name!! Instead of calling me 'Awesome grace', he called me 'Amazing grace'! All of us burst out laughing! hahaz..

Yday, i went back to Sentosa in the morning..Had a time of solitude and reflection w God..And its really refreshing!! I guess sometimes, im just trying to juggle so many things on hand that God asked me 'Are you ok?' 'Without all these things on hand, wil ur faith in me still be as strong?' I broke down..I knew i needed Him so much! 1Cor1:27 came to mind again..I guess that was the reason y i forget to bring my hp yday and even had to go back to Sentosa cos i left my bag, wallet and everything there! God is teaching me to have faith in Him no matter if I am busy juggling or have nothing at all.. and to keep away frm all distractions. In the afternoon, we had Amazing raze!! Awesome won!! Isn't it awesome!! I learnt so much frm Uncle Alfred this weekend, he is really a motivator..Thank you for the ride out of sentosa and the ride home!

YEAH YEAH YEAH!!

2005-10-29T00:45:00.000+08:00

YEAH YEAH YEAH!!

wohoo!!FINALLY...my essays are done!! Had been having physically draining nights for the past few weeks..doing my chinese biz and history essays..My fav hangout place was the library!so sianz rite?But thank God its over!And i could really feel El Shaddai as he gave me the wisdom and peace i needed in my weakness.

One of the most happening thing was my 21st Birthday party!! yeah! 22 Oct 2005. So glad that so many ppl helped out before and on the day itself. Thank you, Jan, Jiehuai and Sandy for the grocery shop @ sheng shiong! nv bought so much stuff b4! and i realise i really get blur when got so many things to do! =D Thank you Sandy again and 2Calebs for waking up early in the am to help prepare food for the bbq! Actually there were several games being planned in e afternoon, but we played Ultimate Frisbee Challenge, while the rest played cards.. It was so tiring running ard & the NUS ppl lost!! (i think we are getting old, reflexes no gd le!haha)

Frm 5pm onwards, many ppl streamed in..It was fun taking pic w ppl and jus talking (or trying my best to talk) to everyone!!I just went round and round to chat w ppl and i realised at the end of the day that i din eat much for dinner!!not even touched the baked potatoes i wanted so much to try!! wahaha...there were fireworks to play and it was quite fun too! considering all of us want so much to become a child again and started playing..hehe...

My bday ended with a 'smash'!! or should i say many smashes! church frens jus gave a chase and smashed my face w the cake cream!! ke lian de wo!! no one help me! i jus ran and screamed and ran and screamed! then when i tot it was all done, my dear sotong jie came into the toilet and smashed another on me!

Ultimately, I had loads of fun that day and if you came for my bday, i really wanna appreciate you for being part of my life, and i noe that God has placed u in my life as my fren for a special purpose!! Praise the Lord for His wonderful blessings!! Did u realise that the days b4 and the days after were rainy days except 22oct? Indeed, its God's blessing as He, our almighty held the rain just for us! * clap clap*

Wanna share a verse b4 i go for class, 1Cor1:27 'But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong' Are you feeling weak today? He will use you and perfect ur weakness thru His power so that YOU may BOAST in the LORD!!

Princess Gracie!

2005-10-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

Princess gracie!!hahaz..leah edited that photo for me!

My 21st bday!

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Candid shot!!hahaz..

crammed with projects~

2005-10-04T04:21:00.000+08:00

Crammed with Projects~

Yeah, this is the correct description of my day today and my weeks ahead!I gave up on my readings cos there are so many other things to do! 1 Chinese biz (2500words) essay, 1 Social Work visit Term Paper (30%!!), 1 History essay paper, 1 Chinese Tradition essay (due this wed) and one very very important birthday party to organize! hahaz..

I just realised the snacks can cheer me up during stressful or sianz days or even sleepy days!haha!! No.1, Synder (pretzels snack) caramel flavor, No.2, Loacker's biscuit wafer (choc or nuts flavor also can), No.3, Iced mocha coffee from NUS vending machine, No.4 Strawberries!

Here is sth i shared with Jedidiah about STUDIES, which u can apply to ur life too! God tot me to :Spend time with Him despite busyness
Trust Him for the results
Understand the main concepts of what im studying
Depend on Him for Wisdom (james1:6-7)
I will honor Him in my process of study (No regrets)
Enjoy what im studying
Study smart (don get urself confused!)

Yday we gathered at Shiloh to pray and it was a great time of bonding with each other in prayers! I believe when 2 or 3 gathers, He is here with us! (there was 13 of us !)Could feel His presence in the small tiny space that we had yday! And amazingly, even before we prayed, God answered our prayers! 2 of the peoples that we were about to pray for came into Shiloh! Praise the Lord! =D God knows our heart's desires, yah? I believe God wants Jedidiah CG to place HIM first in our lives.

We always say He comes first, but do we really preach what we say? Our actions speak louder than words. Is He truly FIRST PRIORITY in ur life? thats my question to you.

God is jus so amazing!

2005-09-26T13:46:00.000+08:00

God is jus so amazing!

Jus feel so assured, so loved by God to know that Im walking in His will! God gives wisdom freely when we call upon Him! I have been having trouble studying History, western imperialism and all, its so much info to me! But everytime when i jus pray for His wisdom upon me, i could understand what im reading already, and it seems like any other storybooks! Thank you, God!

2 things i wanna thank God for showing me:
1. I met my mentee this week for chat and told her what God showed me about her spiritual gifts. That was on friday. Jus now, she was sharing w me tat lao da told her the same thing too! (of cos we used different words, but it meant same things!) I was like, wow! That must be from God, yah? Use it mightily, effectively for His Glory my dear princess!!

2.I was supposedly preparing for BS this week b4 P.Jabez decided to hold cluster gathering. On El Roi, the God who sees, and one of the chapters we would look into was Gen16, on Abram and Sarai and maidservant,Hagar. I had questions regarding that chapter during preparations and wed got it sorted out w yoke yee. And you know what?? Though today's BS by P.Jabez was on BGR, the very first chapter we looked into was also GEN16!! And P.Jabez explained the question that I queried in my heart too! I looked at Yoke yee and we smiled at each other! God wants CG to know tat He is the GOd who sees!! Muz share muz share!hahaz..

Something exciting happened this week! hmm..can say that i was prompted by Holy Spirit to ask P.Jabez if he needed someone to lead worship b4 bible study today. So, i got Raymund tog w me, to play guitar! Its a challenge (me not v musically inclined) for me and I told God that im doing this so that his strength and power can be made known in my weakness! And im jus an instrument, ready to be used by Him! Raymund was v enthu when i told him abt it too. He was like,' Do u noe how many ppl we have in elijah cluster?' So i told him tat i noe i cant, but God is the can. =D

Hmm..don really noe how I fared, but I could jus feel God's presence with me! His peace!! cool feeling.. Though i din que raymund in fast enough and din sing when i was supposed to start, hahaz..told u i wasn musically inclined rite? But the presence of the HOly Spirit was enough. Thank you,God!!

I will blog again after wed, these 3 days its my stress days!! Tml got social work visit, tues got another visit plus HISTORY test, wed got SOCIO test!! But no matter how busy i am, i wanna spend time to pray for Jedidiah!! Pray pray pray, pray until something happens!! *big smilez*

me and lao da

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Me and lao da, frankie!!

me and big guy!

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Me and Big Guy,weixiang!!

Me and Sul

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Me and my buddy, Sulwyn!

My bday is coming!

2005-09-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

My bday is coming!!

Whats up with Mid-term break??

2005-09-20T04:33:00.000+08:00

Whats up with Mid-term break??

I got a BIG question to ask.. whats up w mid-term break when i have to go sch on a blue Monday morning, have classes on Friday, rush project that is due next MOnday, and study for 2 tests, one of which i am quite loss at whats gg on!! haiz.. thats life in NUS. That's what God has placed me in and I know and i know and i know that He will see me thru!

Rom8:28 'And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. '

I had a splitting headache yday, lots of things gg thru my mind. Sch, cg, frens. Here's my wishlist for this week: Wisdom to understand my stuff well, Wisdom & Discernment & UNderstanding & Love to handle ppl and situations, Empowerment to be a good leader for Jedidiah, Passion for the lost and i need lots of rest too! (can someone help me lead esp and cg this weekend? i think i need a break! if not, i believe i can still cont in His strength) *big smilez*

Oh ya, this weekend was fabulous! We had cg outing to caleb house to celebrate Andrew and Kee Onn's bday! but KO din come!!haiz.. anyways, i felt that we had a good time of sharing and jus hearing frm each other. has been quite long since we had sharing time..hee.. and worship was good too..could feel God's presence as we were sharing and we prayed for our dear sister too! No fear okie? God will help u thru ur exams! God is sovereign, in control of everything and He tot us that very lesson thru our week. Thank you jesus for all you've done in our lives!

My fren guo yi joined us for cg. All of us had fun playing zhong zi mi ma!!hahaz.. a way to finish up food..hahaz.. din noe my dear brother caleb don like to eat tomatoes!! u should have seen the way he struggled eating 2 tiny cherry tomatoes! hahaz.. I 'won' 3 times! ate so much, wanted to puke. haha..

BTW, HAPPIE BDAY TO ANDREW,KEE ONN, JESSICA, CALEB AND FRANKIE!!
*gracie logs off to start mugging. wil spend time hiding God's word in her heart tonight(jedidiah, rmb our hw ,yah?)..hehe*

The Voice of Hope ~Lara Martin

2005-09-14T14:53:00.000+08:00

The Voice of Hope ~Lara Martin

As high as the heavens are above the earth
So high are Your ways to mine
Ways so perfect they never fail me
I know You are good all the time

And through the storm
Yet I will praise You
Despite it all
Yet I will sing
Through good or bad
Yet I will worship
For You remain the same
King of kings

You are the Voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
Where there seems to be no way
You make it possible
You are the Prince of peace
Amidst adversity
My lips will shout for joy
To You the Most High

You were the Once before time began
There's nothing beyong Your control
My confidence, my assurance
Rest in Your unchanging Word

And through the storm
Yet I will praise You
Despite it allYet I will sing
Through good or bad
Yet I will worshipFor You remain the same
King of kings

You are the Voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
Where there seems to be no way
You make it possible
You are the Prince of peace
Amidst adversity
My lips will shout for joy
To You the Most High

*My fren jus sent me this song, its so nice!

Its a sad sad day!

2005-09-14T14:45:00.000+08:00

Its a sad sad day!

YL's dad passed away today..was quite affected by the news during lecture jus now. Couldn't concentrate. Jus felt sad cos i visited him jus a couple of months back. Things are so unpredictable.

Daddy went w me to visit Aggie's grandfather at sgh. Mission: To share christ in Hokkien. Daddy was very brave. Though he din noe aggie's grandfather but he could jus chat w him. Came a time where i asked him if he was gg to share christ w the grandfather. I said 'y not start by saying ur children are all christians rite?' Daddy replied 'I was thinking of that too, looking for opp to start the conversation!' And he went on to share God's love with him. =D Turned out that daddy knew aggie's uncle too. Though grandfather wasn open to the gospel, he said tat all religion are the same and that he believes in being a good person, don need God, pray that God in His own time will remove that mindset frm his mind. Pray that all who visit him, even his children will seize any opportunity to cont to share the good news w him!

haiz..so sad..don think can have 21st bday celebration. I wrote my invitation list. 100 ppl!! really.. pri,sec,poly,uni, colleagues and church frens! i wish i could hold a party! it would be so cool.. *sniff sniff* no money.. is there anyway out??

El Elyon, the God Most High!

2005-09-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

El Elyon, the God Most High!

Been chatting w yoke yee for 2 days in a row over the phone. Really thank God that she is recovering fast! Indeed, our most Sovereign God is in charge of all situations we are facing! Even her operation!

Today cg time was quite funny during the first hour. We had charades the taiwan show way and had so much laughter over how to act out the Bible characters and passing the action 'correctly' to the ppl in front of them. =D I think one of the most impt lessons i learnt frm today is that: I know I can thank God cos He is in control of my financial situation I have in sch. Received a cpf letter saying that my family might not have enough to cover my uni sem fees thru cpf payment. As you know, bank loan is so much higher interest rate and preferable payment (i analysed) is still CPF. Don't wanna burden the family. I felt worried at first cos its like a problem that wasn't easy to handle. But, God comforted me and assured me, as I was preparing for BS that since He is El Elyon, He is sovereign over my financial situation as well! And He will provide for me! On the way home after church jus now, Daddy said that my ex-church aunties (those that saw me grow up as a child) actually asked him if my family was coping well with my education fees. God brings ppl to us even b4 we approach others! hmm..will see how things go, if really need, mayb can loan frm them first! Thank you Jesus for providing a way out! Thank you, God that even as i prepared for BS, I was blessed by His word too! yeah yeah!

Jus now had a FULL swensens treat frm P. Jabez! *clapclap* yummy! we stayed there from like 3-5 pm! Then a few of us made our way to bt batok to have a farewell dinner with Justin. He is leaving for army le! (goodbyes and see you soon!)

*oh ya, the Jedidiah personalised 'Jesus' iron-on looks super nice!Glad that each one of us could have such a unique thing! press on, Jedidiah A Level warriors!

Cute girl praying!

2005-09-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

Praying = Depending on God